Wednesday, 28 October 2015


If someone had told me 2 weeks ago that I'd feel grateful for having a cancerous breast tumour I'd have thought they were crazy, but here I am thinking...


The scan showed nothing else. It's not gone anywhere. Just sitting happily, minding its own business in the bottom left quadrant of the lefty.

And as of Friday it'll be gone. Off to the lab in a jar. And I can get on with chemo (if they decide I need it) and radio, and blitz the hell out of any stragglers.

So today I am happy. Over the moon. And deeply grateful to the Universe, and especially to all of you. For your messages, e-mails and your prayers.

I've hardly told any of my real life friends yet (don't want to ruin anyone's half term!) so feeling the waves of support from you has really propped me up.

When I started this blog eight months ago I had no idea that I would come to rely on it so massively, or that at times it would feel like the only thing keeping me sane.

A special thank you to Jill who got her whole congregation to pray for me! Nobody's ever done anything like that for me before.

One of my readers happens to be a breast cancer survivor and a nurse. She sent me an e-mail entitled 'The dolphin didn't lie'. I must have read this mail at least twenty times. Here's an excerpt (I hope she doesn't mind me sharing):

I am making a guess here because I don't know you but I think that you have never asked "why me?" Because the question is really "why not me?" Not because of lifestyle, past misdemeanours etc but because everyone is dealt a bad hand at some point in their life be it divorce, bereavement, ill health, whatever! It's the old adage 'life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass. Its about learning to dance in the rain.'

Funnily enough, I wrote a post on called Dancing in the Rain (click here) back in May - which now seems like another country.

And right now it may still be raining - after all I still have cancer - but I'm dancing in it, and the storm will pass.

Since I can't have a glass of champagne to celebrate, I have bought 2 boxes of Matchmakers (orange and mint flavour) which I'm going to eat until I feel physically sick.

(Keeping fingers crossed for my much beloved Aunt who gets her scan results on Friday)

I love you all.

SM x


  1. So pleased for you. And so well done on staying off the booze - I am sure you were tempted from time to time.

    1. I was tempted to drown myself in the stuff! (But knew it would only make things worse)

  2. HUgest of congratulations - brilliant news xxxx

  3. been thinking about you all day - So relieved for you x

  4. I am crying tears of joy.
    Being you all the way. I know some day you will be helping someone else with a health issue, just as you are with sobriety.
    By sharing you have changed the world. And it is a better place.
    Thank you.

  5. I am so relieved for you. So glad you blogged. Enjoy your celebratory matchsticks tonight!! X

  6. WOOT WOO!!!!!!@*&#!!!!!
    Great Great news! Yes, another reminder for all of us to live in the present.
    And yes, you've got this.
    P.S.- I knew it, because your work here is not yet done. Remember what your NYC psychic said?
    Yes, you HAVE helped a lot of us. But 'You've got a long way to go baby' (to grossly paraphase a huge advertising campaign - thought you might like that!).
    Good luck for tomorrow

  7. YAY! Go Sober Mummy! Enjoy the sugar rush. xx

  8. I'm thrilled to bits to read this - was just popping on to comment on the Deals With the Universe blog and to say how much I agreed with every word LushNoMore had said (even the make smoothies!) And saw this!!! I'm so happy for you!!!!
    Enjoy the matchmakers - lovely dipped into hot chocolate ;-) xxx

  9. Thank you for sharing not only your story, but your wonderful spirit.

  10. Dear Sober Mummy
    new to this space but sending you and yours warm thoughts at this extraordinarily difficult time

  11. thank you for updating, that is brilliant to hear! Enjoy the matchmakers...I'm toasting your news with my hot chocolate. Xx

  12. That's great news! I was ready to drown your sorrows with you. So glad I don't have to ;-)

  13. You've shown such strength. Thank you for sharing with us, I've learned and have been inspired.

  14. So pleased to read your update. Good luck with your treatment. Mx

  15. That's great news! Hope your treatments all go really well and you are back to normal quickly! I'll have a strong cup of tea and few chocolate bikkies in your honour. Just remember "This too shall pass" :) xx

  16. Best news ever SM!!!! So overjoyed and you've inspired me to start out (again...) at day 1 today xoxo

  17. That's great news SM! I'm so happy for you. A xx

  18. Yay team!!! Time to buy something gorgeous to celebrate and that you can wear in hospital (hopefully only on the day of the surgery and not for the chemo!)-maybe simply a fabulous lipstick to make you feel special because you are! Txx

  19. Great news! God has plans for you! Roll on Friday xx

  20. very pleased to read the update SM, thanks. all the best for Friday.

  21. That's great news SM. Just checked on to see how you are. You've still to make sure you look after yourself though. xxx

  22. dear SM - so so haaaapppyyyyy for you. You are amazing, so strong, so awesome. You are my inspiration - in so many ways. Thinking and praying for you. Love SFM xxxxx

  23. Ooh - also - matchmakers - yum - haven't had those for ages! SFM xxxx

  24. thank god for great result. so happy for you. Here's to a speedy recovery. Fantastic news xx

  25. I didn't get a chance to check blogs yesterday and so I jumped in this morning half eager and hopeful, and the other half trepidatious (I know that's not a word, but to hell with old Webster and Oxford). Hallelujah! Can I get an Amen? So happy, i'm sniffling. What a way to start the day.

  26. Shine on SM! Keep putting those thoughts down on cyber paper. You help me stay Boston Strong, Boston Sober!